So reality is really starting to hit me. I feel like all of my blogs are getting to be about the same thing, so ill tell you guys a story instead. 

My host dad has been a little difficult to live with, simply because he thinks that everything he does is right and everything anyone else does is weird. You would think, since he has traveled the world and is married to an American, that he would have a broader perspective, but apparently not. He is always telling me that I am weird, or I am doing something not normal.  So the other day he brought out this squash-looking melon thing for after lunch. He asked me if I would rather have an orange or melon, and of course, I said orange cause I dont like melons. And this melon did not look like any melon I had ever seen.  He looked at me like i was the craziest person in the world and was like, "you dont like melon? But melon is normal!" And I kinda lost it. He is the only person in Spain who has gone out of their way to make me feel different, which is infuriating because everyone else says I am "casi Espanola" which means almost Spanish. So I just looked at him and said, "What is normal? Normal doesnt mean anything. There are people who dont eat meat, or pasta, or anything else you can mention. There is no such thing as normal. There is only normal for you." And he was kinda taken aback, cause usually I just either ignore his comments or treat them like a joke, but I just couldnt take it anymore. And you know what he said in response? "Well, melon is normal." I wanted to throw the melon at him! By that time i just let it go, because there was no use in continuing it, but seriously. I couldnt believe it. 

Other than that, I am slowly melting away in the heat, its been over 100 these past few days...and what is worse, is that when the sun goes down the temperature does not drop. So basically im in a state of constantly sweating! 

This has definitely been a summer of learning and growing...I feel like i might have to reintroduce myself to you all! In many ways I am a completely different person, but also I am still Kelly. It will take some time for me to figure out how my new thoughts and ways of thinking fit into my life back at home. Right now i would say that i just feel unsettled. I cant feel comfortable here because I leave so soon, but I am not comfortable with the idea of leaving.  I am getting excited to see my friends and family, and go back to some old routines. But its hard to think about leaving all of this behind. Everything here will just go on as normal... except I wont be here. 

I am just going to try and enjoy every minute I have left here, and think about all of the wonderful people that are waiting for me back home. 

Love to you all, 

Kelly